Adios Amigos

Well then, this has taken an unexpected turn for the worse. To say the least. It’s been 12 hours since I last heard his voice. I didn’t even question him. That sweet little web of trust had me surrounded. Looking back I guess that was a pretty good feeling not worrying if I was getting half truths and lies. Well that illusion has been shattered. Tired of the cryptic way I am leading into the impending dome? Yeah me too, me fucking too. Pretty much, he can go fuck himself. I trusted him. I bared my soul, I gave him everything. It has been abused for the last time. I refuse to throw some sort of fit. Falling into a screaming ball of rage is not the option today. I have made my own resolution. I know it is one that I have been down before and only caused heart ache and strife but being the stupid motherfucker I am, I am going to fucking do it anyways. Why? To cause him pain? To live yet again in the unattainable? It seems that is where I fit in the best even though the pain is excruciating. I don’t fucking understand it. None of it. So once again, it is going to be all about me. ME ME ME ME ME. Yes, I am reverting but one must do that to an extent when they live to focus on themselves. I will clarify I am putting myself before Him and only him. My family, friends, and coworkers will still receive the respect they are do.

Since this is no longer about us but all about me I won't be coming here anymore. You all have been great, thanks for everything. ~Miha