I just want to be a slut right now

Ah, the first breakdown of communication. The night before Daddy had brought home some company, so I received no spankings. I expressed my disappointment to Daddy and my need for a good spanking. I think he half listened. Fast forward to last night I can’t remember all the details so bare with me. Sometimes I get really sensitive and hate to be touched or kissed unless it is in just the perfect way. That is the way I was feeling last night. I was upfront and warned Daddy. I haven’t been like that in a really long time. I was still up for a good spanking though and thought I had expressed that. Basically I ended up being really bitchy. After much frustration Daddy finally went and took a shower. I snuck in and joined him. He wasn’t being very nice, shoving me against the wall making me wait for water. Not letting me move. He made me hold the position of my forehead against the wall of the shower. When I would try to move he would shove me back into position letting me know he hadn’t told me I could move. I was loving it, I was dripping wet. Finally when I was allowed to share the water I took his fingers and pushed them into my wet cunt. We finished our shower. Again I thought I was explicit in my needs. I told him and I quote, “I just need to be fucked. Spank my ass and grab my tits.” So we climb back into bed and he proceeds to try to kiss me and touch me all over! AHHHHH! I pouted like a little kid and turned away from him in disgust. Which of course pissed him off. I called him an insensitive asshole and asked him what was so difficult in granting me one small request. Should I say again this is nothing new to us. The spanking and grabbing of the breast that is. Long long ago the spanking started so I guess I felt justified in my request since I knew this was something Daddy was more then comfortable with. Again I asked something to the effect of ‘why can’t you just fuck me.’ Eventually after much drama he did. I should be honest and say my feelings were still hurt, I didn’t understand what the issue was. I don’t think Daddy cared that I had made an explicit request. After we finished and he cleaned me up I didn’t want to cuddle and Daddy loves to cuddle. I began to feel guilty. Is it his fault he wanted to kiss and touch and be more loving and I just wanted to be treated like a slut. I guess I had just been craving it so much I was very disappointed. I think this is hard for me because 99% of the time Daddy and I are on the same sheet of music. I told him again tonight that I just have this craving for him to be mean to me. He was cute/sweet about it, ‘I can’t be mean to you.’ I asked if he couldn’t be ‘mean’ to me what was that in the shower last night? I think the baby came running up to us acting silly as hell at that point and we just enjoyed being mom and dad. I can’t decide if I am just being dramatic (not my usual style) and need to let it go or if I need to bring it up again. I am pretty sure Daddy hasn’t really thought twice about it and I guess that is why I hesitate to bring it up again but really feel I should. See what I mean, I’m so confuzzeled.