It was still early, the kids were tucked in for the night, all was silent. Usually at this time Daddy and I go our separate ways for some individual alone time but it had been a pretty peaceful and enjoyable day, we giggled and played as we tumbled into our bed. We cuddled we talked senseless talk…I fondled him. He asked if I would give him a blow job. I told him I would love to and that I loved that he asked. I think I can count on one hand the number of times Daddy has asked that of me. He has asked way more times if he could please eat me. So I proceeded to take his warm cock in my mouth. Enjoying the feel of it, enjoying his responses to my touch. He was wonderful telling me to go slower and praising me for the way I was applying pressure with my lips as I bobbed up and down, and moaning sensually as I bit at his head and nipped on his balls. I am still getting used to using teeth, who knew! At some point he had me on my knees on the floor as he sat on the bed giving himself to me, delicious! I know I had to be moaning in pleasure as I devoured him, he asked me what I got from pleasing him. He sounding like he felt guilty for taking such pleasure in receiving instead of giving, so I took his hand and placed it between my legs, he could feel the wetness even on the outside of my panties. He greedily pushed them aside and pushed his fingers into me, it was nice but he was interrupting, I pushed him back onto the bed and finished him off. I squirmed and moaned and he shot his cum in my mouth, It was sweet and delicious, I was so happy. He pulled me to him, we cuddled and talked some more. He asked again what his surprise was. I told him if he guessed right I would tell him, I was just to shy to come out and say it, thank goodness he finds my shyness to be charming! Finally after a couple clues he guessed about the wrist cuffs, and I could instantly see the wheels turning! He asked me what he would be allowed to do with them….what a great opportunity for me to spill the beans! I kind of turned away, shy again! I told him I felt shy cause there is something I have been desperately wanting to tell him but haven’t been able to. He spooned me and held me close. I told him that I love him so much and trust him completely that he could do whatever he chooses. And that I wanted it to be like that for everything that had to do with sex. That I really do derive most of my pleasure from pleasing him. He made me turn towards him and he pulled me close. I used the example of the other night when he pushed me on him in the middle of the night and basically fucked my face, that even though technically I didn’t receive any personal attention I found it very very very incredibly pleasing and every time I think about it I get wet. He said he wouldn’t feel right doing that all the time, I told him I didn’t expect him to, I was using that as an example to show him how much pleasure I get from pleasing him. He said he felt that it was a huge responsibility and that he was scared he would mess it up by making me feel taken advantage of…how would he know where to draw the line. I reiterated that I wouldn’t feel taken advantage of because this is what I truly want, but that we would definitely take things so and figure it out together. Again he stated something about how he feels hesitant to start something especially like that night because what if I just wasn’t in the mood. So I asked him if we could make a signal that he could use to approach me with at times like that. So he could approach me to see if I was in a responsive mood and if I wasn’t he didn’t have to feel out and out rejected. I told him to just kind of massage my ear lobe and demonstrated it to him. He agreed and seemed really enthusiastic with that approach! This definitely made me think…who is training who here? Because I figured once I positively respond to him each and every time them eventually he will see that I mean business and will do with me as he pleases.
No I didn’t say anything about total submission or how far I’d like to go (hell I don’t even really know) but it is was a start. But I did tell him something that was important to me. I explained how being and feeling vulnerable to him is a huge turn on. And something I think I would really enjoy is him binding my wrist with our new pink toys. He was all for that! I went on to explain that I didn’t mean always in the context of a sexual situation, that anytime in bed would really make me happy. After sex or even with no sex that just some nights at bedtime to be bound like that would mean a lot to me. I think he still took it as a commitment to have sex and said something like what if I end up not wanting to have sex later though….I reassured him that I was more then ok with that, that I didn’t take it as a commitment from him for sex.
I can’t remember everything we talked about those were the highlights for me. I know there is a lot more communication to come. We had a follow up conversation today and it just proved he only half got the things I said, but that is ok. I am a patient woman and he is a wonderful guy so I know with a little work it will be all good.
Monday to come...
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